Moody Me

There a post not beginning with "I".

I have been to see a counsellor, is it counsellor or councillor? Sorry had to go and take the nose vacuum off the stove as it was about to boil over.  Someone please make voice recognition software so that my hands don't have to keep up with my brain!

Anyway it was the one that doesn't care about property values (unless they are deeply concerned that they bought a house just before the GFC like I did) and she has put me onto a service called "Moodgym" you can google it if you'd like, no Im not giving my permission, simply stating the fact.

The online assessments of my mood started out quite well but as I suspect they were beginning to trend toward aspects of my personality which I am not really concerned with; they became irrelevant in a short time. Not totally but just to one side or another on certain issues: an example, imagine a Likert Scale (take that Kari Dunn Buron) I sincerely hope you've been threatened with legal action for copyright of a tool in the public domain like I was, but I digress..

So an attitude scale with statements and some Agree to Disagree options.

Statement: If I do not have nice things I will consider myself a failure... Well I had to disagree but if the statement were "I am undeserving of nice things" or "I feel guilty for having nice things" then I'd have wholeheartedly agreed.  So it'll be interesting to see how this thing works out.  I was asked to write down my "stressors" but Im not very good with lists and I tend to lose them although the note for the benchtop dimensions in the kitchen is still synched to my phone (three generations later).

Maybe next test I'll need to write the alternative questions and then I can take the "anti-test"?

This stream of garbage has been inspired by Eddie Izzard.  His voice is currently providing narration in my head.

Oh that was the other thing.  Voices in heads.
I don't "hear voices" as in James Mason (or Eddie Izzard doing an impersonation of him) isn't audibly telling me to "go an buy all the finger buns at the bakery".  But I do have an internal voice (some may say soul, spirit, conscience but I don't use such terms as I feel they may convince people that I believe in things which aren't) maybe internal narration is better or internal narration of low resonance thought (sounds like a thing).  Anyway; at particularly low points in the year which strike at times of "stress" I do have this non auditory internal narration (some might say thought) which doesn't say to do things or people would be better off if..... but that I am the worst person in the world.  If you read back to the end of 2015 you will find a very similar thread. I know they are irrational and non factual but there they are.  I am working on ways of living with them like a housemate who walks around naked and cooks strange smelling food and doesn't wash dishes.

I.M