How it works.
Excitement
Event or Non event
Disappointment
One week:
"Dont say anything, remember that happy people have no expectations."
"If you say something, you're a selfish shit. Don't say anything."
"That was kinda important to me though, but don't say anything"
Two weeks:
"The fact that nobody has mentioned it means they either; dont care, dont think what you think is important and so YOU are NOT important. Don't say anything, it won't be important."
"It's a long time from the event now, saying anything would be weird. Just put it in the back of your mind and help out."
Three weeks:
"As youre not important, you should just throw yourself at stuff for anyone and everyone, just do stuff because everyone IS more important that you."
"Well, at least doing stuff is keeping me busy but I cant really sleep even though I'm tired"
"Doesn't matter, its your problem, not anyone else's."
Four weeks:
"Okay, I'll say something but only if someone asks directly."
"Wow, I honestly thought someone would've asked. I know, I know, its because I'm not important."
"Well just do stuff to make yourself happy, buy stuff, make stuff, do stuff"
"You're no very talkative, better start giving more than one word answers or someone will think something is up."
"Huh, nobody thinks anything is wrong. See not important to anyone."
What's worse than being disappointed is the confict of the shame I feel for being disappointed which just serves to remind me that I am disappointed which makes me ashamed...
