Saturday, 5 December 2015

Linear Me

It's been my hope that this blog will one day take on an "organic feel".  It sounds ridiculous even as I'm typing but hey ho, there it is.  I'm waiting for assistance for my "wellbeing problem" and perhaps that will include tacking my addiction to quotation marks and parentheses.  Unfortunately when one visits a doctor seeking a referral for one's own mental health it isn't considered "common practise".  Those of us who recognise there is a problem aren't really bad enough to receive help.  Had I been talking to the wallpaper and eating my pets a few weeks ago I'd be well underway toward recovery.

So here I am, stuck in limbo.  The events of the past months have taught me to be far more mindful of my state and to recognise when things will dip which works quite well most of the time.  I've noticed that at times of high emotional excitement that my mood can plummet in under 24 hours.  Success is closely followed by feelings of abject failure.  Such feelings are difficult to rationalise (as feelings are innately irrational) and I am struggling to talk myself out of them.  This weekend I'm resorting to my age old method of burying myself in work.  I shall no doubt emerge in time for Christmas with very little physical health.

Where is "The Line"?
Things cross it so frequently at the moment.  People's Facebook pages are just collections of things that will definitely annoy others.  I come from that standpoint that everyone is a hypocrite but people all have different levels where their personal brand of hypocrisy commences.  Some are quite high and some less so.  I don't think many of them are bad people.  I do believe that 90% of the people I meet in my lifetime will be good people otherwise I'd have trouble leaving my house in the morning.

Christmas is particularly good at annoying people for varying reasons, one of mine is people saying "Happy Christmas" who get annoyed when I say "Merry Birthday".  CHRISTmas is particularly pertinent at the moment with the particular brand of anti Islam sentiment behind bandied about on social media (giving ISIS exactly what they want for CHRISTmas no less).  People are being outraged at complaints about Nativity scenes (which are usually historically inaccurate anyway, and that's if you consider Gospel to be.....well....you get the idea). Often groups of good people with particular spiritual beliefs complain about images of a man with a white beard and a red suit as being morally corrupt and ruining the message.  It seems some of those people are outraged that the Nativity might offend others in the same way the bloke in red does to them.

Luckily us bloke in red devotees are a thick skinned bunch.  I just hope anyone who is offended by Nativity scenes or Father Christmas doesn't have to plan a wedding anytime soon.  That is a guaranteed method to offend people in ways you couldn't ever imagine.  The happiest day of your life is preceded by months of the most miserable days (which makes the wedding day seem like the happiest day).  When you think about it, you pay all your savings, buy everyone a meal, have to stay sober, dress in very uncomfortable clothes and leave the party earlier than everyone else, plus you have to speak in public which is something most people fear more than dying.

It will likely offend people (the kind of people who begin some sentences with "I'm sorry but...." which clearly indicates that they either A- don't know what sorry means or B- aren't actually sorry (a liar) that if I were to properly offend people I'd get a choir to sing "Woody Allen Jesus" at a Christmas Carols night.

Why do people say that? "I'm sorry but......" You're not bloody sorry! it's an interjection where someone doesn't want to be held accountable for the next thing to say.  I make a living out of saying things to people and if you have to begin your sentence with "I'm sorry but" you're about to say the wrong one.  I'm sorry works best either at the end of a sentence, or at its beginning, closely followed by a justification for your feelings of sorrow.

Anyway that made no sense at all, how organic.  Oh shit it was meant to be orgasmic.
I'm sorry but.....
I.M